Plenty of times in my life when I’m physically not doing well that can spread into how I’m doing spiritually and getting COVID was no different. By day 7 I was feeling the “Quarantine blues” HARD. Since the first day of showing symptoms each day a new one came. What started as a runny nose and headache turned into that PLUS; congestion, heavy breathing, loss of taste/smell, fatigue and a burning in my nose anytime I would take a deep breath.
If you read my last blog you know that our squad has started 24 hour prayer. Any hour of the day there is at least two people praying for our squad, the ministry, or anything else God puts on our hearts. Day 7 of quarantine our squad came together to share what we had been receiving in prayer and wow was the Lord showing up! As each squad mate shared things I was encouraged and yet also didn’t feel like I could fully take it in. As we were closing in prayer I asked the Lord to convict someone to pray for me before I went to bed. I told him I was tired and didn’t want to ask for help but I needed it… no one prayed for me.
The next morning I woke up even more weighed down. I had the 8:30am-12:30pm prayer shift and like every one before that I couldn’t focus. My heart was heavy with so many things that had built up over the week. As I was sitting on the couch listening to worship music tears started to swell in my eyes. 101 thoughts were swirling in my head and I asked God, “How do I turn this off?” Eventually as I sat crying WITH and TO my Heavenly Father I realized that all the questions had stopped, the noises coming from outside weren’t noticeable, even the worship music seemed to be silenced and all I could hear was my slow, deep breathing.
When I opened my eyes… I was rested. Hear me when I say I wasn’t healed physically, I still had symptoms. No… My HEART felt rested, refreshed, and lighter than it had in a week! I had only been asleep for maybe 15 minutes and I woke feeling more like myself than I had since getting to Colombia. As I opened my eyes I felt the Lord tell me a couple of things…
- He answered my question of, “How do I turn it off?” He said, “You don’t. You give it to me. Let me turn it off for you. Rest in my presence. When you wake, be refreshed and ready to pour out again.”
- I also felt him say, “I didn’t tell anyone to pray for you last night because I already had THIS SWEET MOMENT planned. I wanted you to come to me with this because I’m the ONLY one who could give you the rest you needed. I didn’t want anyone to take this moment from us.
- He also reminded me of Matthew 11:28 which says, “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”
I left my “Normal life” in the states to find the Lord moving in BIG and EXTRAORDINARY ways in other countries and I’m still expectant that I’ll see him do that. He is a God of both and how intentional of him to meet me in the ordinary, exhausted and lying on a black couch in Colombia.
If after reading this you’re intrigued with finding him in the ordinary, check out my Squad Leader Cari’s blog here. I’ve been so blessed to spend my quarantine with her and she very much sees the Lord moving in the everyday things.
Thank you for the continued support and following along with my journey this year. Please feel free to comment or share with others and if you want to stay updated, click the subscribe button up top!
Love always,
Cyntya
Thanks for the shoutout hehehe. You were one of the biggest blessings of quarantine; your presence bring me so much peace and I love seeing the Lord working through you!! Getting prouder and prouder of you every day sister Cyntya ??
Hi Cynthia,
I’m glad you getting through Covid and are having such a “rich” experience in such heartwarming ways. ?? to you!
Those ?? are a red heart emoji.
Thinking of you, Cyntya!!
I love watching (and there may even be a little bit of stalking involved on each of your pages ??) to see moments like this – where Jesus grabs hold of you and your hearts!! What precious moments!! Thanks for being vulnerable & sharing this! It is moments like this where the trajectory of our lives and the lives of others can & will be changed!! Thank you Jesus for sweet Cyntya – continue to grow her for an uninhibited life of serving you fully surrendered in every way that she cannot possibly even begin to imagine! ??
What a beautiful moment you had with our lord and knowing that he is with you. With all of you. Love mom.
So beautifully said!! Happy to hear you are on the road to (physical) recovery and feeling refreshed and rejuvenated in the heart
THIS is so sweet! The whole race is just a purposeful way for you to meet God in new and different ways….no one can plan the ways, we just trust God that He will reveal himself!
I loved this line:
[GOD said to you]: I wanted you to come to me with this because I’m the ONLY one who could give you the rest you needed.
YOU have met HIM as REST! and NO ONE can ever take that away from you!
You received…